1.18.2011

On Quitting Smoking...

Well, I've officially made it one week without even a puff of a cigarette. I'm creating this particular post to share some of the amazing things I experienced throughout the week due to quitting. I'm thinking it would be cool to do a weekly post on further wins as well... I would love it if people who read this would comment with any sort of encouragement or further inspirations to keep me on the right path. I want this one to stick...


The other day, probably about day 4 of quitting, an amazing aroma of dried eucalyptus in my office found me... this wouldn't normally happen, this renewed sense of smell, and I'm enjoying really embracing it. I've felt a sort of expanded array of senses, almost like more dimensions of senses that I forgot even existed providing an open floodgate of memories of childhood and innocent exciting dreaming. I'm sure this is the restoral of the natural release of dopamine spoken of on the quitting smoking site I've been reading. I came to a point of not even wanting or needing a cigarette by about day 5 which was amazing. I've just been embracing the flow of happiness or exhilaration that comes to me naturally and the reminder cues ( such as someone being gritty and cool in a movie and smoking or a nostalgic song ) are like a challenge I love to go through without the via of the false sense of breathing in some sort of havingness ( the cig ). I've realized that the true havingness comes from having all of this non- dependent joy & freedom from the never-ending addiction of unfullfillment. I love being alone and in present time with no need to inhale smoke:))). I keep getting aromas that before would go unnoticed by me.. The star jasmine we planted outside of our window... The smell of either paint or drywall in Starbucks... These things are attached to more feelings that flood in of happiness and newness... Richie also mentioned the feeling of being young again. I feel that too. We both feel like we are on some rad drug that is just healthy for once. We are high due to our own body's ability to create dopamine when we meditate on something exciting, productive, and expecially creativeness as opposed to the release coming only from nicotine and no real emotion attached to it other than maybe just negative ones such as " we're broke, we're tired' we take care of kids all day, wa , wa, wa.... Now, we are becoming more and more appreciative for what we have. I'm LOVING the smell of my baby not diffused by cigarettes. Well, if you have any positive encouragement, I'll take it. This is a really tough addiction to break as great as it may feel...

1 comment:

  1. So cool, so hard to do, so much respect for you...

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